Disclaimer 1: All documents are my documents to share. Documents will come from Raytheon, Eglin AFB, 7th Special Forces Group, and more. All emails, texts, photos and videos posted are owned by me or addressed to me giving me full ownership and I have chosen to share them. All screenshots, photos, messages, and more shared by Clarissa Mann, Tawnee Mark Hall, Tamara Hodges, Robert(Bobby) Hodges, Clancy Mann, Samuel Guest, and more were publicly posted and/or directly sent to me, or sent to friends/acquaintances who have given me permission to share and are legally shareable. Via “Friend Hut” terms and conditions agreed to by Clarissa Mann, Tamara Hodges, and Samuel Guest have forfeited all their rights and agreed to allow me to share any and all information I possess or acquire for any use I may have. All names mentioned are actual people and their public profiles will be shared. Witnesses and Professional Witnesses will be blacked out in order to protect them, their families, and their businesses due to the gross abuse that was done to me, places I worked, and my children. Due to this Im afraid they may try and hurt them and anyone anyway they can. So again, for their safety their names will be blacked out.
I have made the decision to break this blog into parts. There has just been so much, that has happened that it is extremely difficult to really smash it all in a 1-2 page blog and call it a day. Especially, with all the screenshots, emails, pictures, documents, letters, and more.
I also want to quickly address my stance on why I’m sharing this story. Why I’m putting it ALL out there. And the answer is, because of three reasons: 1) All our lives we are told to hush and to make our lives look a certain way. We are told to suppress it, rather than face it. We are told to back down and stand down. Doing this is why more and more people get hurt. This is why these people go on about their lives, hurting more and more people. If more people would take a stand and hold a mirror to their abuser’s face, I feel the world would be a lot different. We have gotten way too comfortable letting abusers getaway rather than holding them accountable.
2) Because of the mass amount of messages I have received, stating how much I’m looked up to for my strength, courage, and ability just simply to be transparent and honest. Because of the mass amount of messages I have received, saying how much I’ve helped someone going through similar and they didn’t know what to do or where even to turn.
3) Healing. This is part of my healing. This is the little girl who didn’t think she deserved to show the strength she had and kept quiet for so long. This is the teenager who didn’t know which direction to turn. This is me, and my past me’s all coming together and taking the stand I should have always taken. This is me doing something I have never done, being the example of strength I want my children to see, breaking the cycle, making the change needed to push mine and my children’s lives forward rather than holding on to something that I don’t need to hold and have no place to hold. The definition of insanity is doing something the same way over and over again, expecting a different result. And considering how open I have been about all of this and how far my life has already progressed in just a short amount of time, there is no stopping me. I’m done going with the crowd and staying silent, I’m done listening to people whose lives go nowhere, and they are depressed and angry all the time, I’m done allowing what was done to me, and my children have a place to live in our lives when it should live with those who did it. Moreover, I hope you stay tuned.